Miriam's Poems 🫶🏼

Well where do I begin to describe my dear Mary ? She’s really nice when you first meet her but one wrong move and she will turn very sour and bitter like a cranberry. I first met her when I was eight, We met at the Our Lady of Guadalupe parade. About a year later she dragged me with her to be an alter server, I found it very interesting so she became my teacher and I the learner. I’ve never had a friend like her, She’s one of the few people that helped me grow so out of all my friendships I’ve had, hers is one of the few that I prefer. Not only is she my best friend but also my sister, But there’s a bit of a twister. We are not related but we look alike and people confuse us with each other, They will call her ‘Miriam’ and ask her about my mother. She always took care of me like a sister would, She gives me advice and guides me to do good. She shared a lovely bible verse that has stuck with me for so long, “For when I’m weak, then I am strong.” Today is also your birthday, I hope this year at the fair we don’t get carried away. So many great and funny memories, We honestly don’t care and we tend to always cross the boundaries. My partner in crime, And I feel like we are going to get worse from time to time. I got you through thick and thin, Forever and always my lovely twin. ❤️

By: Miriam Lopez

There’s another young soon to be rapper on the way ! Watch out people cause he didn’t come to play. Just another teen with great dreams and goals. Don’t let no one hold you back, continue doing what you are doing and take full control. Just like you said, “I’m a future go”. Can’t wait to see you work towards your dreams and watch you grow. “I got heat.” Your words just flow smoothly with the beat. He calls himself the real symbolic. Anything that comes his way will instantly be demolished. Continue fucking shit up ! With all your hard work, you will continue getting that dub. Much love ! We both write rhymes so we both know whats up !!

By Miriam Lopez

Follow him on Instagram: @therealsymbolic ! Go show love !!!

When it comes to asking for help you should never be scared. People will never know your pain because to speak up and to ask for help you never dared. Asking for help doesn’t mean you are weak, it means you need a little support or advice so open up your heart and let it speak. Trust me I know it might feel scary but asking for help will give you an amazing relief. It will feel great for all those negative emotions and feelings to finally be released. I say this from experience. No matter if you believe that it’s no big deal, these emotions and feeling should always be taken very serious. That’s why I went to Roybal Family Mental Health Center. They always looked out for me and did everything they could to help me feel better. I was with them for 4 years, filled with blood, sweat, and a lot of tears. My first therapist was Alicia Morales and I was with her for 3 and a half years. When I first started I had so many fears. I thought that therapy was something bad and that it meant that I was weak, and having that mentality made it a lot harder for me to speak. “Picture me as a friend or best friend that you see once a week to talk about any problem or anything going on in your life, and knowing that she’s going to keep it to herself unless she feels like you are in danger” Alicia said. After those words, I started to slowly improve and move ahead. After sometime, I went back to seek for help again. I fell back down into a very dark place of lighting, thunder, and rain. The things that was different about me the second time I went back was that I was a lot stronger. I recognized and reflected in the mess and trouble that I was in when I was younger. Two months later I was moved over with someone new. What scared me is that I didn’t know with who. When I met her I felt comfortable, and what gave us more of a connection is that we both had a similar name. She constantly reminded me of me improvement and the person that I become. Just like everyone in Roybal, Marian gave me hope. I will never forget what Alicia and Marian did for me I am truly grateful for them both. I want to thank every single person there. Thank you for all your love and care. I am now the best person that I can be, with all the support I am now set free. I walked in feeling nothing but fear. I was in a dark place and would push anyone that came near. Now I walked out feeling stronger and better than ever. I walked in completely lost and broken and now all the missing pieces are all put together. So if you need help don’t be afraid to look for help if you need it. It’s better to ask for help than to hold it all in and to later give up and quit.

By: Miriam Lopez

There have been problems with social media throughout these past few years. Not everything is bad but no change seems to appear. Here are a few examples, and also a few samples. The main problems with social media now a day is cyber bullying, negative body image, unhealthy sleep patterns, procrastination, cause anxiety and depression, and you have no more privacy. But it doesn’t seem like any of this matters in our society. Before, bullying was done face to face. Making you feel like you are the only person that everyone hates. Now face to face bullying turned into bullying online. The bad thing about this is that face to face bullying happened at school or other public places but cyber bullying can happen at any time. Something that is also seen a lot is people getting put down or feeling very self-conscious about their bodies when they see others with “perfect bodies”, and it’s seen more with young ladies. For a lot of people, social media seems to be an addiction. People stay up till very late and lose sleep making it necessary for any form of restriction. Social media also gets in the way of school work. Grades begin to drop then fewer chances of graduation and that’s when they begin to concern. All the drama and negativity cause and increases anxiety and depression. All this is caused by all the rejection and aggression. A serious issue that is seen constantly is false identities or in other words fake accounts. That’s how most hate and cyber bullying come around. Certain people or as we call them “predators” do fake accounts or use fake identities to harm others including young teens. Without realizing the amount of mental health and pain that it leads. No matter if your account is private, people can find your profile very easily. No one ever knows how much people see. Last but not least the main problem on social media is that everyone is very sensitive. No one can see or understand what someone means or in what way that something is presented in. We all need to be careful with what we do or put on the internet. Don’t give any bully any attention and always remember to treat people with respect.

BY: Miriam Lopez

December 2017 was when I finally had enough. I never thought that this was going to be so rough. Enough with the fights, drama, procrastination, bullshit, and especially with the lies. Enough with always being the drama queen and bad person in everyone else’s eyes. Walking into City of Angels was scary, but in life you have to do what is best for you and what is necessary. I’m not going to lie all the homework and the way things were done at City of Angels were pretty difficult. The positive thing about all this was that drama and distractions were far away and very minimal. My main support system was my two best friends, the beautiful Ms. Quintero and Ms. Hinda Joy Laury. The amazing thing about them was that they always made us their main priority. Laura Garibay was the person in charge of the parent center who became really good friends not only just with me but also to my mother. Everyone is very supportive and they always encouraged us to strive for success all together. City of Angels was always full of positivity, it was as if everyone was living free. Before City of Angels I was full of hatred and anger, and as time passed I became stronger. I found myself, and I realized that I always tried to be someone else. I learned a lot, and I started to appreciate everything that I got. I will never forget my accomplishments and the people that helped me succeed. One thing my teacher always told me was “life is life” and yes Ms. Laury, life is life indeed. Not only did I learn from a lot of my mistakes but I grew as a person. I put in the work and I started to work with purpose. City of Angels High School was one of the best decisions I made, and for once I wasn’t afraid. So now I want to thank Ms. Laury, Ms. Quintero, Laura Garibay, and Ms. Benson for always supporting me while I struggled through my tough journey. Thank you for placing your life on the line for me. Much love for all of you, I hope to see you guys soon. I am forever grateful. Damn …. honestly thinking back to those fun days how the hell did you guys deal with me ? Especially you Ms. Laury cause fuck I’m a handful.

By: Miriam Lopez

*For all my non Spanish readers I apologize in advance. This poem is pretty much about my future. Don’t worry I’ll make another poem translating it :)*

Con todo lo que eh pasado en la vida, no voy a dejar que eso se ponga en el camino de mi futuro. Voy a seguir mis metas y convertirlas en realidad y eso se los aseguro. En el futuro quiero ser una poeta y autora. Creciendo siempre eh querido ser una escritora. Voy a tratar de ser más positiva, y de disfrutar más de la vida. “Los ganadores nunca abandonan y los que abandonan nunca ganan.” Le doy gracias a mi familia y todos los que me apoyaban y aconsejaban. No me voy a dar por vencida, porque para éxito es la donde voy dirigida. “Un objetivo es un sueño con fecha.” Aunque no tenga una fecha exacta no voy a parar hasta que yo esté satisfecha. Entonces que se prepare el mundo porque aquí les viene una futura escritora, y mi futuro empieza ahora.

By: Miriam Lopez

For you I will do anything, you have no idea of the amount of happiness you bring. It’s been a year and a month. From the moment and even before we made it official I knew my true happiness had begun. I know I have failed you more than once, I apologize for my mistakes and my stupid stunts. I thank you for never giving up, and I thank you for being a huge part in my life as I slowly begin to grow up. Through all the ups and downs, you still treat me like a queen and make sure that I never drop my crown. Never thought I would end up with someone as great as you. No matter in what situation I’m in you are always there to help me push through. “True love doesn’t happen right away; it’s an ever-growing process. It develops after you’ve gone through many ups and downs, when you’ve suffered together, cried together, and laughed together.” We are both stronger and better, and we will go on forever.

For you what is untouchable ? In my opinion someone’s feelings and thoughts to others always seem to be invisible. No one will ever know what someone holds deep inside, but there are certain feelings and emotions that you have to hide. Here are a few ideas that came to mind. So now I ask you to empty your mind, focus on my words and leave any other thoughts behind. The two first things that came to mind was emotions and thoughts. These two are one of the few things that make everything get tied into knots. You can’t think straight, and suddenly you can’t concentrate. Then there’s love, and much more. There always comes a time when we fall in love with someone or we fall for them like never before. There’s so many things that we feel deep inside and no one sees, here are a few examples like these. Hate, anger, sadness, love, and pain. As much as most of these are bad, might drag us down, they constantly remind us that we are living and alive over and over again. Now the most important in my opinion is God. A lot of you guys might find it odd. But if you think about it, with God in our lives means we have faith, and that’s the one thing that makes us feel safe. Some of you guys are not religious and that’s okay, but God gave you life and can easily take it away. He is the reason you are waking up every morning and living another day. You don’t need to be a true believer but don’t push him away. Most people do not take time to address unhappy feelings, but I truly believe in that one thing called healing. Like Paulo Coelho once said, “considering the way the world is, one happy day is a miracle.” People will slowly begin to see that you are not invisible.

By: Miriam Lopez

Everyone has some form of passion. You just have to know when to work the magic. My passion is writing. Coming up with crazy and creative ideas to me is so exciting. When you write it’s like you enter and create your own perfect world. But a lot of us wished that we wouldn’t have returned. Writing isn’t just about coming up with a fairy tale. It’s about writing down things that you can’t say out loud in thin air. Writing is true talent. It’s a way to keep our thoughts and feelings in balance. Becoming a writer would be a dream come true. You will be able to read about my life and read how much I grew.

By; Miriam Lopez

*It’s been a year since my family and I lost a very special family member. The pain hasn’t gotten better for me 😦 I still cry for her, remember her, and wish she was still here. I miss and love you grandma ! This one is for you ! ❤

Abuelita … it’s been a year,

Although you are no longer here with us I still feel you very near.

Not a day goes by where I don’t miss you,

The sad pain of losing you and grandpa is stuck in my heart like a tattoo.

To me, you two were and still are very special,

You two have always looked out for us and wanted me to be successful.

I love you two so much,

Loosing you grandma has been tough.

I hate this pain,

I find it so difficult for strength to gain.

Now I’m going to ask you for a favor,

Please never abandon me and please don’t stop looking out for me ever.

Please continue to guide me,

Forever together and it will always be just us three.

Forever and always in my heart,

Always together and never apart.

You will never be forgotten,

I cannot wait for the day that we are reunited and when we get to walk in the beautiful garden.

By: Miriam Lopez