Miriam's Poems 🫶🏼

I can't fully explain the way you make me feel,
But what I can say is that it feels unreal.
Happiness is one thing I haven't felt in a while,
My cheeks literally hurt for how much you make me smile.
Whenever you smile, I feel like I'm doing something right,
For that smile, I will forever fight.
You have supported me in every situation,
Even if you are on vacation.
I will love you for a million years,
Even if you make me shed some tears.
After everything you have done,
My heart you have completely won.
I cannot express and explain how thankful I am,
But the only thing I can say is "goddamn' 
Even though I'm not a poet.
I try to write down the words I left unspoken.
I don't want to make this so long,
But I want you to know that my feelings are strong.
So thank you for everything,
And all the happiness that you bring.

Miriam Lopez🤗

Sitting alone in the school hallway,
When out of a sudden I seen an attractive boy coming my way.
Quickly wiping my tears from my eyes,
Just so that no one will ask why.
Not knowing what else to do but stare,
Noticing all he would do is glare.
The mysterious boy was always so quiet and grumpy,
It was rare when I would see him smile or happy.
He was always to the side on his own,
It seemed like he needed help and a friend even though he was grown.
We were both the same in a way,
We kept to ourselves and made sure people stayed away.
Something attracted me to him,
But the truth was that I was so scared to talk to him.
His face expressions made it seem like he was rude and cold hearted,
But for some reason I couldn't stop thinking about him.
I'm not going to lie, the first day I saw him I thought he was very cute and attractive,
But at the moment I could not have him.
My attraction for him only grew by each passing day,
When friends or someone caught me staring or asked if I was ok, I just said that there was nothing to say.
I was a sophomore and he was a senior,
When I would think of us together, I always told myself that I was one big dreamer.
He was soon going to graduate,
So I thought there was no point to wait.
On the very last day of school,
I walked around looking for him like a fool.
Until someone told me he wasn't going to come,
I felt a pain and guilt that I didn't think I would overcome.
I told myself, "Life goes on",
So I decided to live life and move on.

Miriam Lopez🤗

I’m sitting and thinking, “What is wrong with people?”,
What do we have to do to make people understand that we are all equal?
Mexicans are not “killers” and “rapist”,
They come to the United States to find a way to provide for their family because in Mexico they can’t get the life they wished.
Blacks are not “thugs”,
Being treated badly and still expect them to keep shut.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH,
No time to waste on giving up.
A lot of blood, sweat, and tears are being shed during these dark times,
People are being killed without committing any crimes.
What has our world come to?
It seems like we get judged for being non-American and for everything we do.
We need to put an end to this nightmare,
With all this hatred we are going nowhere.
End racism now,
Don’t be ashamed of where you come from and stand proud!

Miriam Lopez🤗

This is a story that’s never been told,
Because of this story is why my faith and religion I will forever hold.
The story begins with a mother pregnant with her 6th child,
Little did she know that this pregnancy was going to be the most wild.
Within months into her pregnancy, she had some form of stroke,
That’s when the nightmare awoke.
It’s never safe for either the child or the mother to suffer from this horrible attack,
The doctor’s main concern and fear was that the baby not surviving an attack like that.
The doctor lost hope and gave them bad news,
And gave them a difficult decision for them to choose.
Get an abortion or the baby will be born with a disability,
But the abortion was refused and they accepted the unborn very willingly.
Weeks later they were holding a perfectly healthy baby,
Both parents were extremely blessed that their baby was born safely.
This just proves that miracles do exist,
Because the doctor said that the child was going to be born with a problem but there was a twist.
The child grew up living a healthy life,
And is blessed to be alive.
I am the child of this story,
And I’m blessed that my parents didn’t give up on me.
This is why I have so much faith,
This is why I go to god when I’m down or afraid.
I am called ‘the miracle’ at Saint Alphonsus Church,
I’m beyond blessed and grateful to God for keeping me here alive on earth.
This is the reason why I’m so close to my religion,
Extremely grateful and blessed for the life I was given.

Miriam Lopez 🤗

*Most of these lines are from “El” by Jenni Rivera and “Eso y mas” by Joan Sebastian*

Aparecio cuando no lo esperaba y no sabiendo que hiva ser el amor de mi vida,
Un momento como este nunca se olvida.
No hay palabras para describir lo que senti cuando lo vi,
Me enamore como loca pero a mi corazon le menti.
Pues alguien mas ya compartia mis diaz,
Pero ese amor siempre estuvo a escondidas.
Tiempo paso y descubri que sin el no se vivir,
Cuando lo conoci, senti varios sentimientos que no sabia que podian existir.
Pero el tiempo despues marco’ nuestras vidas,
Te prometo amarte por el resto de mis diaz.
El es aquel con quien tanto sonaba,
El es el viento bajo mis alas.
No hay nada mas que me haga falta,
Mas que sus besos y sus miradas.
Es esa luz que siempre me acompana,
El es el que me enseno de mi valor, cuando no lo realizaba.
Siempre me siento segura en tus brazos,
Te entrege mi corazon en tus manos.
Y seria un honor hay amor ser tu esclavo,
Te cuidare y hare lo que sea sin importar adonde acabo.
Eres un gran hombre y hay cuanto te amo,
Cada dia le doy gracias a dios por haberte encontrado.

Miriam Lopez🤗

There was once a young girl and boy who thought were in love and thought they were going to be together forever,
The boy treated the girl as if she was his most prized treasure,
That’s the thing about love, love is when two people unite and choose to share each other’s lives together,
It’s when two people help each other grow, learn from their mistakes and to be better.
To love is to have someone with whom you can always depend,
Someone that will always be there for you till the end,
The girl being 15 and the boy 14, she felt more like a friend than a girlfriend,
She felt like they didn’t connect, just like water and oil never mix or blend.
Deep inside she cared for the guy,
But she felt very confused and didn’t know why,
Months passed, things weren’t the same and all the girl did was cry,
The “love”, the care, the support, and the happiness was no longer supplied.
He changed, he seemed to have lost interest in her,
Little did he know that he was slowly losing a valuable pearl,
His bad treatment towards her caused her to think that it was something that she earned,
No matter what she said or did, nothing changed so she gave up but she never does something without getting something in return.
The boy broke the girl’s trust, she felt very upset and wanted to get revenge,
With no intention, she began to feel a great interest towards someone else and that caused in the boy a strong feeling of repent,
Deep inside, her “boyfriend” cared but he decided to play pretend,
He would put her down and tell her mean things but what he didn’t know was that he was loosing at the end.
Noticing the girl’s interest for the other boy, he felt an instant feeling of regret and then tried to win the girl’s love back,
“It’s way too late, why try to win me back after pushing me away for months? 6 months to be exact,
No moments of happiness but always feeling trapped,
Being lied to and abandoned seemed like she was reliving her past.
Being pushed around and cheated on,
“Why keep me if I’m not the one you want?”
Everyone confused and asked what happened to their bond,
The couple everyone thought was perfect was now falling apart.
“How could you? I gave you my heart and you just simply threw it away”,
“Now I have to live thinking that I wasn’t enough every single day”,
“But don’t worry because you are going to regret hurting me so much someday”,
“I will walk away and you will come running back begging me to stay”.
Days later, he ended up breaking up with her,
“I’m sorry but we aren’t happy as we once were”,
“I don’t feel the same with you anymore”,
“But if you ever need me, I’ll be here for you. I swear”.
She believed that he was going to keep his promise,
But he didn’t which didn’t surprise her because him never keeping his promises was very common,
She ended up right at the bottom,
After the breakup, he started to put her down and make her cry a lot more often.
He did all that to look “cool”,
Always making the girl look like such a fool,
She hated crying and looking stupid in front of everyone so she did everything to avoid him at school,
She just couldn’t handle the abuse.
She quickly forgot her worth,
No one seemed to care whether she was hurt,
But deep down she wanted to feel cared for, she wished that the other boy cared for her in return,
As time passed she learned to love herself, she put herself first, and she realized, “I didn’t lose him, he lost me. I was good for him. He lost a valuable pearl”.

Miriam Lopez🤗

A lot of people say that love, at first sight, doesn’t exist, but I have to disagree,
It’s like dreaming while living in reality,
Living and suddenly realizing that a person has the key,
Feeling the sparkle and butterflies in your stomach while they are near or just the thought of them and setting them free.
It begins 2016 during my sophomore year and his senior year,
Never knowing that to me he was always so near,
Since I laid eyes on him, everything became so unclear,
Just one glance from him would make all my problems and worries disappear.
There was just a problem with my interest,
Which caused confusion and problems in an instant,
Although I couldn’t make my move or tell him how I felt, I still admired him from a distance,
Feeling scared of being judged on how I was feeling, I never reached out to someone to listen.
Although my boyfriend was upset, he had no right to tell me anything,
Before all this, he was not loyal to me so he didn’t know with what pain I was dealing,
Noticing my interest in him, he began to regret everything,
Being hurt for what my “boyfriend” did to me, seeing the cute guy made me forget the pain and oh what great happiness it would bring.
I was confused and didn’t know what to do,
I’ve never felt this way towards anyone, these feelings were new,
I imagined myself with him but it was too good to be true,
I thought he would never like me or I’ll ever be someone he would go to.
Weeks later my ex broke up with me and walked away,
Left alone to deal with the pain alone day by day,
My ex would treat me bad and make me feel like a mistake,
I was stuck in a dark room with no way of escape.
There were a few times I talked to him,
But every time we spoke I would get nervous and that would cause goosebumps to run all over my skin,
There were a few times that he came to me because I did a favor for a friend to sell her chips,
Never knowing that we both had something in common loneliness, sadness, and heartbreak were as well hidden within him.
I didn’t want to give up on the cute guy but he was graduating,
I felt myself slowly fading,
But at the same time, I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and I wasn’t ready to start dating,
Deep inside I was willing to take time for myself but this was all too complicated.
Entering my junior year nothing changed,
I would constantly cry or be sad and my ex always seemed entertained,
He would tell me that my sadness was for attention and staged,
I had enough I knew that a change had to be made.
I got homeschooled to focus on myself,
Being surrounded by negativity was affecting my mental health,
But loneliness was something I constantly felt,
4 months later something happened that I will never forget.
My crush texted me on Instagram and we started dating,
He loved and took care of me as he knew that happiness was something I was craving,
For the first time I felt incredibly happy and felt like with my heart he wasn’t playing,
Not long after that my ex wanted me back and started hating.
Marco and I have gone through a lot together,
You are the kind of person that I will love forever,
We both helped each other change for the better,
People would say we wouldn’t last but we remained stronger than ever.
Yesterday specifically marked 1 year and 9 months,
A year and 9 months full of love,
Never give up on each other no matter what,
It’s crazy how incredibly happy I am with you now and remembering how broken I once was.
Thank you, my love,
Thank you for healing every single scar and cut,
Thank you for reminding me every single day of my worth and reminding me that I’m enough,
But most importantly, thank you for loving me and for never abandoning me when things got tough.
It’s been a journey but I don’t regret one thing,
Knowing that I have found myself a king,
That always treats me like a queen,
I’m excited about our future as you will be my witness of everything I will be achieving.
I love you, baby, please don’t forget that,
You saved me and got me out of that dark place that I was once trapped,
Thank you for never judging me for my past,
You are my first true love and will forever be my last.

Miriam Lopez🤗

I want to be remembered as the girl that always liked to give rather than to take,
The girl that once suffered night and day,
Trying so hard to just get away,
But remaining strong by repeating to myself, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”.
Remember me as the girl that wants happiness for everyone,
During my days of constant suffering, I was given so much advice about how to remain strong but it was too hard and I always thought, ‘It’s easier said than done’,
Losing people that you care for one by one,
Never knowing if something will end or if it has begun.
Remember me as the girl that valued her family,
Even though they don’t fully understand what I go through, they do see my agony,
Remember me as the girl that every sentence that came out of her mouth contained so much profanity,
That form of language seems to come out naturally.
Remember me as the girl that faced most of her problems alone,
As the girl that struggled to find happiness on her own,
The girl that kept to herself and stood at home,
Remember me as the girl that after everything she has been through, she has improved on her growth.
Remember me as the girl that encouraged and built others up,
I know how it feels to be forced to hide your feelings and to cover up,
To feel like you constantly run out of luck,
Remember me as the girl that makes sure no one gives up, I will make sure they continue to fight and get up.

Miriam Lopez🤗

Depression doesn't just mean that you are sad, 
The main way to describe depression is feeling like your whole life is a mess. 
A voice in your head constantly shouting mean things to you, 
So you just sit there and let it happen because there's nothing you can do. 
As it continues to occur you begin to believe that all those things the voices are saying are true. Every single day is spent with constant pain and suffering, 
Awaiting comfort that only silence can bring. 
Never knowing whether you are feeling sad or mad, you just kind of feel numb, 
But you patiently wait but happiness never comes. 
Always trying to do what's right but no matter how hard you try, everything you do is wrong, 
Finding it so hard to be positive or strong. 
Feeling a constant fear because you feel like others you look dumb, 
Feeling ashamed of the person you have become. 
With no intention of doing so, you slowly push your loved ones away, 
It's not something you want but you carry that guilt day by day. 
Wanting to be good enough for the people you love but nothing is working and you keep letting them down, 
That is when you enter the stage of constant self-doubt. Depression itself constantly reminds you that no matter what you try to do to improve yourself, You will always fail, It's difficult to describe this struggle with such little detail. 
No one see's the pain that you feel inside, 
No one ever believes you or understands so you decide to not waste your time and to just hide. 
You then begin to question your existence, 
The more the pain the more distance. 
You lose hope and realize that nothing will bring an end to this suffering, 
You sleep never knowing what the next day will bring. 
Wanting to love and to be loved but ending up being disappointed, 
With all the heartbreaks and a pain you stop trying to look for happiness because you feel like it's pointless. 
Often questioning yourself to find some meaning and finding nothing, 
You have no control and all you think about is negative things. 
Always being in a dark room and not having a way out, 
No one seems to hear you no matter how hard you shout. 
It feels like you are drowning but no one can see it, and the ones that do see it shout, "Just swim", 
People seem to judge you but they don't seem to understand the pain you are constantly in. 

Miriam Lopez🤗

Most of us have probably gone through a painful heartbreak,
Feeling like one big mistake.
Loosing someone you thought was your true love,
Realizing that everything they said were all lies including the one they said about you being enough.
Wanting to run and wanting to hide,
From all the pain that they caused inside.
Now memories is all there is left,
But just know that they've lost the best.
It might not be easy to go through a heartbreak and getting rid of this ugly feeling,
Give it time and you will slowly begin the healing.
"I love you", those three words didn't mean a thing,
Thinking that you were both meant to be but realizing that you were just a simple fling.
They treated you such a way,
That made you feel that everything was okay.
Until they regret it and decide to take it all back,
The wonderful fantasy is gone just like that.
"This was a mistake, I'm sorry to say",
"We were good friends, and it should have stayed that way."
Those words stay with you and drag you down,
Also making you feel like a clown.
But it's funny because they come running back, they see that you have moved on and they can't stand to look at you,
Then you wont know what to do.
They will have to deal with seeing you with someone else,
Watching their happiness and as their heart slowly melts.

Miriam Lopez🤗