Miriam's Poems 🫶🏼

Desde que era niña yo siempre sentí el amor de mis padres,

Nunca sola cuando se acercaban las dificultades.

A las 5 de la mañana mi padre se levantaba a trabajar,

Todo el día trabajando en el sol o frío para podernos alimentar.

Mi madre se levantaba temprano para prepararle el lonche a mi papá y mis hermanos para el dia de trabajo que les espera,

El amor de madre es verdadero, especialmente cuando estas con tus amigos y te habla gritandote “A que horas llegas?”.

“Gracias dios por otros días.”

Desde que era niña, temprano en familia íbamos a misa, “En tus momentos de soledad, Dios nunca te abandona cuando lo buscas.”

Le doy gracias a dios por bendecirme con un hombre trabajador como mi padre,

Y una hermosa mujer como mi madre.

El corazón de mi madre es como una canción que le trae ritmo a mi alma,

Con una simple mirada o sonrisa me trae una calma.

El corazón de mi padre es como un tejido que seca mis lagrimas cuando estoy triste,

Con el amor que me ha dado prueba que el verdadero amor si existe.

“No se te olvide presentarse antes de que te duermas.”,

Desde que era niña siempre me acordaba que Dios y la familia eran nuestra fuerza.

No me criaron para caminar por el camino popular, pero para pavimentar fuertemente el mio,

“Siempre para adelante”, dice mi madre. Aunque a veces me quiera rendir y no lo admito.

Me criaron con amor. Y el amor es todo lo que necesito,

Como decía mi abuelita en paz descanse, “Estar juntos en familia es lo mas bonito.”.

Miriam López 🤗

Here I am thinking back at the day we met,
That day that I laid eyes on you and fell in love right away, I will never forget.
Never knowing that we would end up together a year later,
When I first met you, I had my doubts that you would be interested in someone like me due to hearing people say “she’s ugly, I would never date her.”
I wasn’t expecting you,
But the most amazing and best thing I ever did in my life was falling in love with you.
I remember purposely passing through where you were just to be able to see you for a couple seconds,
God heard my prayer “to send me a good man” and he sent you to me from the heavens.
I hope you know that I love you so much with every ounce of my being,
All that you are is all that I’ll ever need.
I hope you know that when you’re feeling down, I only ever strive for your happiness,
I pray for our love to have no end.
I hope you remember that no matter what, I’m here for you and I fully intended of saying this for quite sometime,
My love for you I would put together in this sweet and melodious rhyme.
I hope you recognize the fact that I appreciate and adore you without restraints, and that will never change,
You will forever be my always.
I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I’m with you,
Being with you makes everything negative disappear from view.
You play the lead role in a movie called “My Life”,
I fell in love right away when you first came in sight.
Today marks 2 years and 9 months together,
I often imagine our future with kids and I just can’t think of nothing better.
Before I met you, I never knew what it was like to be able to look at someone and smile for no reason,
But one simple glance from you would make my heart beat like a drum and I never understood the meaning.
I fell in love with you because you loved me when I couldn’t love myself,
I’m so happy and I don’t need anyone else.
Through thick and thin, I’ll accept you at your strongest yet love and support you at your weakest,
I’m grateful for many blessings in my life, but you are one of my biggest.
Ever since I met you, my life became a roller coaster ride! You have become the special part of my life that I will never go of,
When we were first going out on our first dates, I noticed how nervous we both were, the way you looked at me and in that moment I knew... we were both falling in love.
What can I say to you that I haven’t already said? What can I give to you that I haven’t already given? How can I ever begin to describe that by looking at your eyes, you make all my pain disappear? 
Through everything, you’ve stayed with me throughout all these years.
I will cherish the love you have given me and I will love you until God decides it is time for us to leave this earth,
Thanks to you, I found my worth.
We talk about who the lucky one is, but the truth is we are both lucky to have found each other when we did, because I believe we were meant to,
We saved each other, I could not bear to ever be without you. You are my soulmate and everything I am, I give to you and everything I have, I share with you. This is my promise to you.
I just want you to know,
I promise that I will always be there for you, in good times and bad, may we always laugh together like we go now, and may the stormy days we encounter and the trails we face only ever makes us stronger.
Now lastly, happy anniversary baby,
I promise to always love you, to grow along with you, to be willing to face change as we both change in order to keep our relationship alive and exciting.  

Miriam Lopez🤗

I often wonder when people look at me, what do they see?
The judgment of others seems to turn me into something I don’t want to be.
When they see me smile, do they really think I’m happy?
When I look in the mirror, I see all the pain but how is it that no one else sees what I can see?
When I laugh, can they notice that it’s fake?
But deep down, I’m constantly afraid.
When they look at me, can they see the pain in my eyes?
What they don’t know is that the shy girl with the red hair constantly cries.
I guess I got really good at faking my emotions,
But no one knows that in my head there are constant commotions.
What makes all this harder is the fact that I’m so damn sensitive,
You can sit right in front of me and tell me that you love me or telling me how much I matter to you but something in my head will tell me something completely different and turn it into something negative.
I’m aware that I am not okay,
But I have hope and faith that I’ll get better someday.
The hardest part is that I always feel so alone,
I go through this pain on my own.

Miriam Lopez 🤗

Nowadays there's not much I can do to get rid of the pain,
This pain is never easy but very hard to explain.
Every inhale dries every tear,
Every exhale releases all fear.
It's as if for once my body is calm and at peace,
As I lay back and watch the white clouds being released.
I finally got rid of my anxiety,
After all the years of crying and suffering quietly.
All stress is gone,
This peace is all I ever want.
Inhale, exhale, and repeat till it's all over,
It's easy to be high when it's so hard to be sober.
Finally the pain, anger, and stress is gone for a little while,
And for once I don't have to fake a smile.
Trying to numb the pain with this drug,
You all saw how broken I was and you didn't give a fuck.
I get a hold of a pen and pencil as I begin to write my rhymes,
Letting the tears roll down my face as I look down at my scar lines.
Wanting everyone to stay the fuck away from me,
Needed more but everyone gave me less.
Feeling nothing but numb,
The person I would take a bullet for, turns out to be the one holding the gun.
Liking the feeling of being high,
Feeling like I'm in the clouds and floating in the sky.
I got a lot on my mind,
But the whole world seems to be blind.

Miriam Lopez 🤗

There is so much I want to say but I don't know where to start, 
So I'm just going to speak from my heart.
Lets take it back when you first messaged me and called me beautiful,
Over 2 years later you still think I am beautiful and continue to call me that as usual.
Now lets take it back a little further, I remember when I first laid eyes on you and falling in love with you right away,
But I continue to fall in love with you every single day.
I fell in love with you like the way you fall asleep, slowly then all at once,
It started as a little crush but then it grew into something more and I was confused because I didn't know the feeling or meaning of love.
Now I'm going to quote a bit of "The Fault in Our Stars" to put my feelings together,
I want my words to mean more than just a simple "I love you and I want to be with you forever".
I hate math, but I will tell you this..There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There is .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities,
I am in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labors has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you and I will enjoy and love all beautiful opportunities. 
Marco, my love I am beyond thankful for our little infinity,
Your love is so addicting that I want it all of eternity.
I wouldn't trade our love for anything in the world,
To have you in my life make me the luckiest girl.
You gave me a forever within a number of days and for that I'm forever thankful,
I didn't know how to love before you but because of you, I am able.

Miriam Lopez🤗

Until you've walked my journey,
You will never really know the real me.
I have been judged, mistreated, and bullied for the way that I am or the way I act,
Being a victim from anxiety and depression, you realize that the older you become the more you recognize that it's not the victim's fault and that's a fact.
As a victim, I choose to deal with my problems alone,
Somebody help me, I'm losing control.
So until you get sudden moments where you can't breath, worry about everything, and can't stay still,
Wanting to be positive but just not finding the will.
So don't come to me claiming that it's all in my head and that it's fake,
I'm sorry for changing and for the person I've became.

Miriam Lopez🤗

For you I will do anything,
You have no idea the amount of happiness you bring.
It's been a year and month,
From the moment and even before we made it official I knew my true happiness had begun.
I know I had failed you more than once,
I apologize for my mistakes and my stupid stunts.
I thank you for never giving up,
And I thank you for being a huge part of my life as I slowly begin to grow up.
Through all the ups and downs,
You still treat me like a queen and make sure that I never drop my crown.
Never thought I would end up with someone as great as you,
No matter in what situation I'm in you are always there to help me push through.
"True love doesn't happen right away: It's an ever-giving process. It develops after you've gone through many ups and downs. When you've suffered together, cried together, laughed together",
We are both stronger and better, and we will go on forever.

Miriam Lopez🤗

Where do I begin?
This has been the happiest  I've ever been.
You have busted you ass for me and I can't thank you enough,
And you give me hope to not give up and I thank you for the girl that you have helped me become.
Yeah you get on my last nerve all the time,
But you know your love I can never decline.
But when you love someone nothing else matters,
Having you in my life leaves me flattered.
You are like my guardian angel,
You take care of me and keep me away from danger.
You make the butterflies in my stomach explode and go crazy,
In my arms I feel like a baby.
I feel safe with you by my side,
And I also feel very satisfied.
What did I do right to deserve you?
You will forever and always be my boo.

Miriam Lopez🤗

Before you ..... my life was a mess,
I felt like a huge disgrace.
There was no point in living,
Death was the only thing that I was slowly wishing.
Felt like I was doing everything wrong and nothing right,
Getting tired of people telling me that everything was going to be alright.
I was slowly losing patience,
Wanting to drown myself with medications.
I tried committing suicide 5 times,
Being blamed without even committing a crime.
Taking a handful of pills in my hand,
Now I no longer feel sad.
Telling myself ... "I'm one step closer to happiness",
"And I will no longer feel this uneasiness".
Luckily I always woke up the next morning, 
And as usual any friend or family I started avoiding.
As time passed I realized the monster that I was turning myself into,
I knew that I needed a helping hand but I had no one to go to.
My fear only grew by each passing day,
That caused me to cut myself at night every Friday.
I realized how lonely I was,
The only thing that didn't leave me were these thoughts that were so scary so I decided to finally give up on love.
Cause all the guys that came my way, I always had to get rid of,
No one showed me true love, and my "love" to them was never enough.

Miriam Lopez🤗

No matter how many times I say it, I feel like it's not enough,
But until you believe me I will never give up.
Words aren't enough to express how thankful I am towards you,
People as amazing as you, there is just a few.
The amount of love and support that I've received from you is unbelievable,
You have truly made me feel very special and irreplaceable.
What did I do to deserve?
With all the problems that I've gone through, you have helped me push through.
I wish I should have listened to people and should have gone up and talked to you sooner,
But the problem is that you were a senior,
You have brought and gave me endless happiness,
And a little bit of angriness.
I have no idea what I would do without you,
But the only thing that I could say is Thank You!

Miriam Lopez🤗