Miriam's Poems 🫶🏼

When will the change come?
What is it that you need? You know for a fact that you’ve had nothing but support. You want so many things but what about us? You don’t see the monster that you have become.

I’m tired of the same cycle,
I hope one day and I hope it’s not to late when you realize how much everyone around you loved you.

You took a path that I would of never considered. I watched you struggle. But I also watched you cry about “wanting to be clean” but I’ve came to realize that it was just for show,
You cause me so much trauma but I’m not the same girl you took advantage of. I made a decision to move on some time ago.

I’m tired. I’m tired of all the bullshit. But most importantly I’m tired of watching you manipulate everyone around you, and watching you blame everyone else but yourself,
I was a little girl who had to hide my emotions. A little girl that had no one but herself.

You traumatizd me, you molested me, you destroyed me. But the worse part is that you took my innocence and you broke the only trust I ever had,
You lost your way. You did things that you knew were bad.

Your actions made me fear men and affection,
After multiple tries of committing suicide, I realized that I might still be here to teach people a lesson.

You taught and proved to me that those who we love the most have the power to hurt us the most,
Wanted to give up so many times but I couldn’t. I couldn’t leave my parents with the pain of their youngest daughter dying from an overdose.

Till this day, I have nightmares of you. They aren’t all bad, but your presence is the scariest thing,
I remember the way you used to look at me. When I would look into your eyes instead of me seeing love and care, all I saw in those eyes were hate and lust. Everytime you were close, you were always watching.

We both are blessed with a family that loves us and parents who gave us everything. Even though you have hurt us, we always stood by your side,
You have chosen this life, and I’ve come to a conclusion that no one will ever change your mind.

I think alot and I often wondered if I was put on this world to suffer,
I don’t know where or how I’ve ever wronged you. No matter all the disgusting things you’ve done, you are still my brother. 

Miriam Lopez 🤗