Miriam's Poems 🫶🏼

Before you ..... my life was a mess,
I felt like a huge disgrace.
There was no point in living,
Death was the only thing that I was slowly wishing.
Felt like I was doing everything wrong and nothing right,
Getting tired of people telling me that everything was going to be alright.
I was slowly losing patience,
Wanting to drown myself with medications.
I tried committing suicide 5 times,
Being blamed without even committing a crime.
Taking a handful of pills in my hand,
Now I no longer feel sad.
Telling myself ... "I'm one step closer to happiness",
"And I will no longer feel this uneasiness".
Luckily I always woke up the next morning, 
And as usual any friend or family I started avoiding.
As time passed I realized the monster that I was turning myself into,
I knew that I needed a helping hand but I had no one to go to.
My fear only grew by each passing day,
That caused me to cut myself at night every Friday.
I realized how lonely I was,
The only thing that didn't leave me were these thoughts that were so scary so I decided to finally give up on love.
Cause all the guys that came my way, I always had to get rid of,
No one showed me true love, and my "love" to them was never enough.

Miriam Lopez🤗